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Wednesday, 24 February 2010

Borderline

picture via lina scheynius

Recently something happened to a very dear friend of mine.She was always the best in whatever she did.No matter what.School.Sports.Popularity. she also had the best family that someone could wish for. At least it seemed so. Everything went downhill when her parents divorced, her two best friend, yes I am one of them, left to study in canada. When we came she became a total stranger to me. I know I was not there for her in
the time she needed me the most.But I kind of can't accept how much she changed in just a 3 months time.I started to see how she was crying in her room all day.the way she hurt herself by burning her hand telling me that it just feels good to do that because she can't stand the pressure and pain. She said that it is hard for her to fill everyone's expectations.I was watching her cry, I found myself crying as well. It seems things are getting better for her, but maybe she's trying to hide to make us less worried.seriously I want her to be happy again.Now it seems like a show.I hope someday it'll turn into the truth. And she'll turn to the girl she was before.The one full of selfconfidence.The one who wanted to live and have fun.

Monday, 16 November 2009

Holy Crap

Oh my fucking god ..seriously I just realized something pretty crazy today ...it might not be crazyy for you guys but I really need to write it down right now ..haha blogging is like diary for me ...I haven't blogged for a while but I really need to right now cause this really iweird thing happened to me and now it all makes sense
omg this is really really weird i don't even know hot to express it -.-
okay like I said I used to be freaking addicted to myspace and there was this one korean girl I was talking to there..she lived in Hamburg but moved to Munich (the city I live in)like just a few months ago ...of course I didn't know that because I didn't went to myspace anymore
AND guess what I saw her on the street this weekend when I went shopping downtown ..like this fucking city is hella big
you don't meet people easily ..BUt there she was ..standing right in front of me and we were looking at each other awkwardly ... of course I couldn't remember her ..I was just like .."I have seen this girl before...but where?"
I was like an idiot staring at her without knowing...and of course I was to shy to just ask her
so I kept on walking and kept wondering all day ..who was she ? how come she was so familiar >.<
and today I accidentally read a blog ..and who'S blog is it ??it's hers ..can you believe it ????Yeah it was her ..and I was like...heeeeeyyyyy I saw her .....that'S the girl I was staring at ..then I looked at her pictures and there was a link to her myspace...and then I went to my myspace and there were comment of her and I was freaking out
Okay I don't believe in FATE ... but this just felt like it ..cause some people I know actually hang out with her
and because I have like 2000 friends ...and I met one of them without realizing it
I feel like I a writing shit
and yeah I hope noones going to read it ...cause it'S stupid childish and totally doesn't have any meaning
I just really needed to write it to calm down ..haha I was getting excited over such a ridiculous thing
whatever I am tired ..going to sleep now

Friday, 14 August 2009

DreamDestination :Japan

I just found this amazing japanese fashionblog DROPsnap.
japanese people do know how to be original. I love their craziness. I would never ever wear any of these combinations but I think it'S amazing that there are actually tons of people in this little country who have the guts to wear those clothes. They also don't seem to follow any current trends but just wear what they think matches their personality. In Munich , the city I currently live in there are a lot of fashionable people but they seem to wear the same kind of things. I LOVE japan's diversity!^^

I really want to visit japan one day. especially the fashion-districts like Harajuku!

they seem to be so full of life and fun to explore.

one thing I'd also really like to see is also the cherry blossom in spring!!!!they seem to be soo pretty

JAPAN wait for me I am going to visit you someday for sure =P
I mean the flightticket is not that expensive it might be about 800 € and could afford it
but I already planned the next 2 years for other countries >.<

and I am looking forward to the food ..sushi and all the other delicious things yummy

Sunday, 09 August 2009

Addiction

what do you do if you get addicted to everything pretty easily??
I just stay addicted until I get bored of it lol
for example..I used to Love MYSPACE...I am serious I had like 2000 friends and 100 comments a day and I always replied them!! I would rather sit at home being online then hanging out with my friends ..until I realized that I've gone way too far with this addiction.I tried everything to be popular.wtf.I'll never use myspace again.

or ASIAN DRAMAS ..I finished a series of 24 episode in 2 or 3 days!or I watched 5 dramas at the same time. I loved them.again I'd rather stay at home then hang out with my friends.luckily I realized they are all the same.

recently I started to love FASHIONBLOGS..especially those ones about streetfashion
I even wanted to start my own ..but I think I don't have that sense of style to write about fashion
I am not creative nor fashionable enough.in my opinion fashion is a way to express yourself..I am a pretty introvert person.I don't have the courage to wear extraordinary clothes.. I don't want to stand out of the mass =)
but I am getting better, I think I improved a lot since there are actually people coming to me telling how much they like the way I dress.I don't want to sound conceited or superficial but fashion got more important for me the more I read those blogs. I suddenly started to judge people by the way they dress.and i still do. this is crazy I know . but I just can't help it.
One of my first fashionlblogs was PIcked PICs!!I loved it ..vicky knows how to be special without standing out of the mass.

and LULU'S BLog wow I love how everything looks soo messed up.and she still somehow manages to look sophisticated

Karla is also another great blogger! her Closet seems to be full of great dresses

there are even more blogs but I think it's enough to just share my top 3 ^.^

I've also been collecting streetfashion pics of boys!I just love it when a guy knows how to dress.

oh my bad.This entry turned into something else than I expected it to be.
Love or whatever it was

Yes I admit it . I do have my issues with relationships. I keep on running away when it gets too serious.
No matter how much I try to fall in love and stay in love. it never worked I always have tons of reasons not to be in a relationship. because of all these reasons I tell myself that relationships are not what I am searching for.
I am not sure if it's because the right guy didn't show up yet or because I am a coward who doesn't want to get hurt .
Am I afraid of affection ??is that the reason ??
I am not sure . I keep changing my mind when I start to like someone. I don't know what I want.
Actually I just don't believe that you can find the true love in this young age. I don't think that you should take anyything serious now. why?? because you'll have tons of relationships in your life. why put so much effort in something that won't work.
I am not that kind of girl who needs romance.I think it's cheesy when someone tells me everyday that he loves me.
I feel kinda constricted when someone gets too close to me or when the persons wants to meet me everyday.
I want my freedom.I wanna be what I want to be and do what I want to do!
I wonder...Is it wrong to think so?